Nine of Swords
Much like the Eight of Swords, the Nine of Swords has fully turned on the wielder. Unlike the Eight of Swords, this is a purely mental card. The Nine of Swords is despair, anguish, depression, worry, and doubt – basically, mental pain. Unlike the Three of Swords, this isn’t someone else harming you – or if it was triggered by someone else harming you, that incident is so far in the past that it barely applies anymore. You’re not being bullied by anyone now except your own mind. This is your own thoughts turning on you, the inability to let go, and the suffering that comes with agonizing over things you can’t change or that just aren’t that important. The image of the man sitting by his bed and kicking himself basically sums up the card. This isn’t a productive worry, it’s simply rumination. The more you think about something, the worse it gets, and you’re likely making more trouble for yourself than the actual problem.
You’ve been suffering under your own thoughts for a long time, but one day, they simply… clear up. You don’t know what triggered it, but it’s like sunshine after a storm. Things have been dark, but you’ve made it through, and it’s going to get better now. The Nine of Swords inverted is a mental release, the end of depression and removal of anxiety, and the hope for a better tomorrow.